Saturday, October 27, 2007
juan rants:
The Same [Updated]
find the updated parts? lol...
Advanced: Cheong Keat, Chee Chuan, Guo Long
The Big Day!: Christine (lol, at 12 somemore), Tommy, En Ting, Timothy, Chin Yan, Me (LOL),De Rong (Archery 'Twin', haha!), Mei, Chao Yi, Hafiz, Yong Sheng, Pei Shan, Ahmad, You Boon, Mei Juan, Jacinta, Ryan, Nadiah, Rachel, BK, Woei Perng, Cheong Keat, Chee Chuan, Jie Ying
Belated(but still super appreciated!): Guan Zhu, Ee Yang, Shi Yin(lol, thought u forgot sia... haha...)
think got somemore which i cannot rmb... brain now not in gd condition... u will know why later... anyway... thz peeps... apologise to any1 i left out... really appreciate it...
woke up 1hr late today... realized my sis actually forgot my bd... reach at 8.35 when i suppose to reach at 8... but managed to reach in time jus b4 the meeting started... finalized the details for the election... anyway... tis shld be the last ever main comm meeting... and also the last time i will need to endure repeating myself until i get noticed and heard... or to even realised tat nobody has heard wat i said even if they were just around me. lost control when the meeting was ending... wasn't suppose to let it happen... shld had controlled... but nvm... ppl only notice when extreme things happen... anyway... realised even as a main comm... i know nothing bout the situation... only wat was said during the meeting... how pathetic... knowing less is better rite? watever... anyway, congrats to ryan and kai... rmb to work hard and jia you... think u all can do it... rmb, communication is the key...
had a bd bashing by yan, min and dr on top of my knees after the meeting in the club too... dotz... pain lor... some nerves died... dotz... also received my shibuya sight present tat every1 contributed too plus a present from cheong keat... his present super funny... lol!...
went to lunch with the peeps after tat... kai, thz for the drink... brought out a surprise piece of cake after lunch and shimin started a bd song with the rest of the peeps... really didn't expect it at all... so quite a nice surpirse... james, chao yi & xiao bai played with the cream left over from the cake... nvm, had my revenge too, dotz... went to wash up after tat... came back and every1 was gone. went up to the club alone. took my time and went to the toilet... slack... and they still weren't back... called james, they were at the rockclimbing wall and coming up. waited and waited. called again. they were watching the rockclimbing compy. gd job. so i waited at the club for nothing while the rest went down long ago to set the field.
went down to the field. help to set a short distance board. yr 1s who wanted to set 30m set 2 40m wrongly. kope 1 and ask them to help me shift to the side. in the end. short distance board too many ppl. so shoot at 40m. shooting started out relatively well but deteriorated as usual... really in a bad mood by then... plus the boards were too crowded for me in tat kind of mood... felt isolated... felt ignored... so why dun i jus be alone. so, went to the other side and asked hafiz to help me shift a board to 40m and shot alone. and as expected, they didn't even come and ask or even to show some concern.
had to go to my grandparents' place to celebrate my granddad's bd... was told last min on fri nite... and hence, has to cancel dinner plans with the peeps... can't even have dinner with the frens who are special to me on my bd nite. dot... even if some can dun need to go home to eat and can rarely join to eat dinner could make it. (anyway, some of them couldn't make it too...) im still stuck goin to my grandpa's place. plus, only half of the family went too. so freaking dumb. nv even come even when its to celebrate granddad's bd... dinner for me was not too bad... zhu cao was quite nice... long time nv go tat stall le. btw, heard u guys had a great time... haiz...
the only diff today from any other days? many bd wishes from the archers, the cake and the song... (thz again... really really appreciate it...) didn't really get any better treatment for today too... or rather... from the ppl who matters... might be gd if i had at least experienced a day where i was really appreciated or treated like an intelligent equal... 1 day would be sufficient... haha.......... so, i had a better birthday eve then compared to the actual bd... dotz...
quite pathetic actually... talking to a blog then to the real ppl tat i want to talk to... or waiting for them to talk to me (im lik super dumb rite?...) things are like forever goin to be the same no matter wat i do for them... im in a super dumb mood now... really cannot take it even though i know we are suppose to give without getting back anything in return in frenship.. haiz...
signing off...
Juan sighed @ 10:48 PM ...
