Sunday, August 5, 2007
juan rants:
My New Size S Smart Tab
F*. im warning every1. do not touch my stuff whenever i say not to touch. its not funny or 'fun'. if the expression on my face and my reaction/mood after tat is not warning enough, tis is my last warning. DO NOT FREAKING TOUCH MY STUFF WHEN I SAY DUN TOUCH!!! if u dun uds then its ur freaking prob. i had enough of ppl anyhow touching my stuff, then in the end they disappear and i won't even noe the reason!
today. greatly anticipating the day when i can finally use my new smart tab. tis morning. discovered tat 1 of the screws for my spacer/separator freaking disappeared, when i nv even open the package b4 myself. back then when i was screwing and putting back together my old tab after the mink oil was dried, i was even concerned not to crumple the package. i was waiting for today to open the package. but obviously, back then when i told some ppl not to touch my stuff, they still did. think it was super funny rite? i easy to bully. now it disappear, i also dun noe who to blame. wth. i hate it sia. my patience is limited esp my stuff tat are related to archery and personal belongings...
tis not the 1st time. my washers. they also disappear w/o any reasons. f*. i dun care wat yr u in, or how close we are or how senior in position u are. dun piss me off. be warned. tis was a major mood spoiler...
lol. but i forget stuff very fast. but, dun take it for granted. 1 day when u go over the limit then tats it. so, after i started shooting then ok le... but after shooting for a while... i realised i lost the mentality which i had back a few wks ago. sian... now back to the old me.... unfocused, easily affected, angry, disappointed and the spamming me... i throwing my fingertab again... haha... really cannot skip training sia... anyhow anyhow shoot... just can't shoot well... darn sian... train so long still such performance. when can i prove myself... damn sian to see ppl who started shooting later and/or having lousier equipment shoot better... haiz... it really create doubts in myself and my own abilities... then lose morale. no focus. then negative. lol. but last few ends still ok bah... today once again hit 200 arrows after little/no training 4 the past few wks... haha...
the blood on my hand, sling, riser and shirt... wat have i achieved for all my blood and sweat for my c-class journey?? gd qns... hai...
must really work harder... did badly for the pesta trials... lol... had the lowest score at my board... lol... congrats to ryan... haha... rmb ar...
- draw straight, loading, expansion, string alignment, smooth release, maintain muscles, follow thru, focus.. i can do it!!!
rare stuff tat happened today:
- 30mins nap in my '2nd home'
- almond milk tea w/o pearl (lol)
- splinter (not the rat, lol) in my finger (lol, middle finger somemore...)
note: do not try to 'console' me or change my thinking. its up to myself on how i think. u can't force me to change the way i want to think. so dun bother. i need to do it myself. i just trying to organise my thoughts and slightly de-stress by typing tis blog...
signing off...
Juan sighed @ 9:58 PM ...
