Saturday, May 26, 2007
juan rants:
Haiz... Sian... Day of the 2nd Trial
haiz... today was a seriously bad day...
started off alrite today... i helped christine with her grp today, 3 girls, all not bad... hmm, particularly clara... lol, i dun noe how to spell the names of the other 2 students... ps... hmm... actually i quite enjoy the feeling of teaching yr1s their basic form... lol, it totally rocks when they shoot yellow and their look of achievement... haha... but... the sun!!! argh!! totally zapped my energy lor... even after the start of the trials, still super tired... haha... hmm, or is the tiredness jus sumthin mental? the sun wasn't tat hot already... had lunch... a bit sian but still bearable... could be better... surprising how so many things change within such a short time... but not tat surprising actually... sian...
here comes the start of my bad day... haiz... the start of the trials... realise i forgot my form... my feel... the prev day, i shot 304 arrows sia... came eraly to train... kindof improve, then a bit got feel again... then lik tat... but nevertheless, i continued trying, then score still lik tat... super sian... super(*infinity) far from my target and goals... i super running out of time... sian... how am i goin to make it sia... haiz... felt freakingly noobish and weak... u all may say wat, 'tats not true', 'u shot ok wat', 'dun think so negative', 'trial only', watever watever... its how i feel... 99.9% of u all won't uds, so dun pretend to uds wat im feeling when u dun noe or hav ur facts rite.
today... 2 plats died a wrongful death... haiz... broke into pieces... then kai lin and nadiah have 1 arrow less each... 7? too little... then some arrows becoz of the tragedy also got bent... super sian... tat tragedy... a tragedy tat could had been prevented... 1 which shld nv had happened... i couldn't believe myself tat it could had happened also... sian... shall not comment on wat or who i think is responsible... haiz...
no badminton today... too sian to play also... hmm... surprisingly, i didn't negative after the trials... haha... dun noe why tis time so retarded... lol... then tats why maybe once i at home, then my default mood/feeling come back again... haha... lol... side topic: borat is a dumb movie, haha... sumthin super sian happened today again... the root of tis prob? guys... wat else... one of the member of my AF got 'bullied' by 1... (dun ask wats AF, guess if u wan to, but i won't tell) haiz... dun wry, ur more then a match for him, he's beneath u actually... choose whether he's worth it or not... its ur choice... smile!
nowadays... my patience running super low... dun feel lik entertaining or doin/saying/repeating dumb stuff... lik will jus explode suddenly lik tat... then feel super sian easily... lol, no clue why also...
signing off...
Juan sighed @ 10:39 PM ...
